I haven’t posted too much on this blog, The Transformation Retreat. , lately. A few years ago I made a major career change after 35 years in the financial planning world and I’m now a Certified Reflexologist and Vibrational Sound Therapist.

Yup. Quite a change.

In the process, I started another blog that is more related to Reflexology, Vibrational Sound Therapy and overall health. You may want to check it out here. Balancing To Peace

I plan to post more esoteric and spiritual ramblings here.

As always, please share your thoughts and ideas on any postings here. I’d love to hear from you.

I know. I know. It’s July 5th, 2021 and I’m just now listening to the October 7th, 2020 meditation from The Circle of Twelve. The pull to listen and experience the meditations has gotten so strong that I’m finally listening.

Today, as I sat in the Temple, the seats filled again. But today, I saw and felt the energy bodies of those entities. Some were me from past and future lives. Others were ancestors. All came for me to remember and experience my multi-dimensionality.

Sitting in the middle of my Toroidal Field

Do I know what all of this means? Not fully.

Do I know I’m being guided and pulled to continue this journey? Yes.

Am I feeling and experiencing each meditation differently? Yes.

Am I feeling and experiencing my everyday life differently? Yes.

Am I feeling more peace? Yes.

I offer these experiences with the intention of giving all of us permission to remember more of who we are. Permission to surrender to the process. Permission to receive at a deeper level than we’ve ever received. Permission to say Yes! Permission to remember and receive our full potential and the peace that comes with it.

Please share your thoughts. What’s changing in your life? How are you experiencing more peace in your life?

Feel Peace. And BE the Transformer.

You’ve heard me talk about Kryon before. Kryon is a being that is channeled by Lee Carroll. Last September he opened a new program on Healing Wednesdays called “The Healing Circle of Twelve”. I purchased the weekly program and only listened to a few of the first discussions and only 2 of the actual meditations. It’s a 52 week program with a different “healer” interviewed before the 20 minute guided meditation each week.

My higher self, inner knowing, divine within, universal intelligence has/have been pulling me to actually listen to the meditations. So we started the meditations yesterday. Ah.

Today, as I walked across the bridge, into the mist and through the fog, I saw the building. I saw the temple, my temple, and it looked like a large cathedral. I smiled and chuckled inside because I had a similar vision in 2012 when I was in India at the Oneness University. (Oneness University is now Ekam) That temple/cathedral that I was invited to create in my mind in 2012 was named “The Cathedral of Saint Laughter of The Tickle Feathers”. This is where my divine resides. Part of the story behind why I have said repeatedly, and have posted on profiles on various social media sites, “I don’t care if people are laughing with me or at me, as long as we’re laughing. And usually, it’s AT me.” I’m now guided to shift some of these postings. I still want my energy field to open a safe space for others to laugh and to be themselves whenever they are around me.

Kryon keeps repeating the essence that we are more powerful than we could ever imagine. We have the innate power and ability within us to heal anything. I feel this more and more deeply every day. I’m feeling this more deeply today because this is aligning with several of the various paths and meditations and conversations I’ve had with others. The word multidimensionality keeps coming to mind. I think I’ve had the mental concept of it but not the experience of it. I think I’ve been striving to mentally grasp this but haven’t allowed myself to open up to feeling it. I’m beginning to experience that multidimensionality can’t really be grasped mentally. It’s not a construct of the mind. It’s an experience. It’s an opening to new possibilities. It’s another opportunity to stay grounded yet expanded.

As Kryon says, every time we walk through the mist, the fog on the bridge, we open a new level of experience, a new level of awareness. I’m feeling this. I’m experiencing this new openness. And I’m hearing the words “Grounded, yet Expanded.” Grounded, yet expanded. Be willing to experience these new awarenesses and new experiences. Allow myself to explore and experiment. Knowing all along, I am and can stay grounded as I venture into new territories. Ha ha ha ha ha. It’s my choice to stay grounded and aware as I move into these experience instead of being ungrounded and choosing drama.

Kryon also says that each time we go through the mist our experiences may change. The colors may change. The feelings may change. Today we were invited to step to the door of the temple, realizing it may change. And I saw my historical concept of what a church or cathedral is “supposed” to look like. And as I stepped through the door of that traditional cathedral, it all changed to a modern structure. White. Windows. A pool in the middle for swimming laps and for enjoyment. Glass in the ceiling.

As I hear the raindrops on the sun porch roof right now, as I’m writing this, I’m seeing this new structure, all glass, in the mountains, with a view, with the stage in the middle of this circular structure. Mentally, I haven’t grasped the concept that I’m sitting in the middle of this structure, yet experiencing everyone around me, since I currently only see through my eyes. I sense a new awareness growing where I can feel in multidimensionality. I can feel and be aware in all directions at once. I’m feeling more grounded in the idea of being multi-dimensional. I am multi-dimensional. Grounded. Yet Expanded. A new level of awareness is opening.

I am still aware of the judgments I have of myself, of my body with an extra 20 pounds on it. “My Covid-19” extra 19 pounds. And the level of compassion is growing. The level of acceptance is growing. The level of “what is, in this moment, is ok” is growing. Being ok with “what is” is growing instead of the “what I wish it was” or “what it ‘should’ be”.

A deep breath. I relax. I feel ok. I feel grounded. I have clarity. I’m feeling balanced. I feel peaceful. I have a gentle smile on my face. And I hear and feel . . . Balancing To Peace.

I invite you to Breathe. Allow. Be Aware.

Breathe deeply into the present moment.

Allow whatever is there to be revealed.

Be Aware of whatever is there.

And have compassion for yourself. Love yourself more deeply. Have more compassion for yourself more deeply. Put a gentle smile on your face and breathe.

I’ve always loved music. Sang in choirs in grade school, high school, college and several other choral groups in the last 37 years since graduating college. I love to dance to loud music. And I love to skate to music. Since I’m not skating as much these days, and I’m back living in a house with much “gardening”, I now plug in the headset and let the music go while cutting the grass or pulling up poison ivy.

We recently binged #rupauls A.J. And The Queen and couldn’t get enough of the music. It always moves me to a higher vibration. I feel as I move into a higher vibration I feel more connected with others. I feel more connected to their feelings. I feel more connected to mass consciousness and all of the beliefs we, as one humanity, hold there.

I was driving to the eye doctor and listening to If I Dream (on repeat repeat repeat)

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=3GPtd-7p75c&feature=share

And feeling pretty good, when I drove past a homeless women at the end of the exit ramp. Then I was more aware of people of color around me. And then I saw the police car show down. I felt it.

I got a sense of how friends of mine feel when they see a cop, wondering if they’ll be pulled over for “#DrivingWhileBlack”. Wow. The feelings overwhelmed me. The feelings of fear, of sadness, of confusion, of frustration, of anger.

I kept breathing.

I kept feeling.

I allowed myself to Be Aware of what is there. How have I perpetuated these feelings through my actions and words?

I kept breathing deeply.

How can I help heal this?

I believe the more we Breathe, Allow. And Be Aware, the more we can increase the amount of compassion in the world. No judgment. Nothing to change. Just Allow and Be Aware.

In this deeper awareness we connect with our true essence, our inner Light of Compassion, Peace and Oneness.

Please share your thoughts. #balancingtopeace #BLM #feelpeaceandbethetransformer #peaceinmylifetime

We’re coming up in the Labyrinth’s first Birthday so I put new wood chips down and spruced it up a bit. Here are some current pictures including a new bench and few more flowers.

Come walk it. Allow a space in your life to feel the healing powers of a labyrinth.

#labyrinth #balancingtopeace #peaceinmylifetime

I’m following my heart and my intuition here.  As soon as I heard about this experiment, my heart said that I’m to share it with others.  Many others. Some will accept and some will decline. And it’s good, either way.

 

This was a very strong feeling to share it. I don’t know much about it other than it’s an experiment and a way to connect with others in The Field.  The energy field. The field of source. It’s tuning in for 30 minutes.  That’s all. No YouTube video to watch. No Zoom link to get. Just Be.

 

At 1:00pm Eastern (New York) time this Saturday, April 25^th, sit or lie down, quietly, with your eyes closed.

 

That’s all.

 

You may notice or feel something. You may not. Either way is fine. Some people notice sensations in and around their bodies. Others feel nothing.

 

Breathe. Allow. Be Aware.

 

Notice if you have any thoughts and just let them be. Nothing to do with them. Nothing to change.

 

Just Breathe. Allow. Be Aware.

 

That’s all.  Even if it’s only for a few minutes, take some time during that 30 minute window and sit or lie down quietly, with your eyes closed . . . and . . .

 

Breathe. Allow. Be Aware.

 

Please send me a note with your experience. If you have questions before, send me a note and I’ll answer them the best I can.

 

Enjoy your Week. Stay Safe and Stay Healthy. Hope to Be with you in the field this Saturday at 1:00pm.

 

#covid19 #peaceinpeaceout #everydaymasters #weareone #peaceinmylifetime

One of the things during this Covid-19 experience that I find heart-breaking is hearing how people are isolated during their last few days and last hours. Even if it’s not Covid-19 related, people in hospice are limited to the number of visitors if any are even allowed.

I keep coming back to music, especially during this time, and the song that I’ve been playing is “Calling All Angels” by Karen Drucker.  Have a listen and play it for those transitioning from this plane of existence. She wrote it for her mother when her mother was in hospice.

 

https://youtu.be/4CIPBtp7GBs

 

#callingallangel #Karendrucker #covid19 #peace #innerpeace

 

As we sat in meditation today, I was reminded of a question that David Ault asked us during a class at Spiritual Living Center of Atlanta several years ago.  And I’m paraphrasing here.  “When you’re in that place, that funk, when the brain is spinning out of control and there doesn’t seem to be a way out, what’s your self talk, your mantra, your phrase, that can shift you out of it?”

Immediately, I heard

 

“I am Love. I am Loved. I am Loving. I am Lovable.”

 

I also remember the feelings I felt the first time I said that to myself.  I was overwhelmed with feelings that I was not loved and lovable.  I remember feeling judged and not good enough. I remember all the childhood indoctrinations that were contradicting this.

 

And I kept breathing.  I kept repeating.  I kept breathing.  I kept repeating.  And those misaligned beliefs, and the stories that were attached to them, started to weaken their grip on my mind and my feelings of helplessness.

 

I kept breathing.  I kept repeating.

 

And I’m hearing more and more the phrase . . .

I Am Love.
I Am Loved.
I Am Loving.
I Am Lovable.

 

These are getting more deeply imbedded into my psyche, into the cells of my body, but they aren’t there completely . . . yet.  The more I focus on what I do want to feel and experience in my life, I allow space for those misaligned beliefs and feelings to emerge, if they are ready to be released.  Then I keep breathing deeply, so I can feel them, in my body, bless them for how they have served me, thank them . . . and I let them go. I let the go into the light of pure awareness to be recycled in more Love, Peace and Joy.  I come back to focusing on my preferred experiences.  And then I put my awareness on the synchronicities that are already present in my life, aligning with those preferred experieneces.

 

Gratitude.

 

Compassion.

 

Self Compassion that extends to a deeper level of compassion for others.

 

What’s your go to Self Talk?  Please share in the comments.

 

Feel Peace and BE the Transformer.

 

#peace #selftalk #whatbringsinnerpeace #inspiration

As I wrap up this weekend, how can all of us experience more peace? This is Inner peace as well as Outer peace. We see and hear a lot in the world today of turmoil and division. I may be one of those Pollyanna people that feels deep down inside, beyond the fog of fear, Beyond the delusions of division, beyond the sensations of separation, we are all unconditional love.

I ask myself this morning this question. “How can I open a safe space, in this moment, for this person in front of me, so that they have greater permission to just breathe and relax and BE themselves? BE the Divine Light within them. How may I open a safe space that others may shine their light more brightly?”

I invite you to take 15 minutes and Explore the Ekam World Peace Festival website.

www.ekamworldpeacefestival.com

If it doesn’t resonate with you, feel free to delete it. I encourage you to Follow whatever path you have that produces more inner peace in your life. If what we’re up to here with the Ekam World Peace Festival interests you, let me know how I may support you.

The weekly teachings were very transformative for me last year. The 11 daily rituals and meditations that are live streamed from the Oneness field in India, transformed my life last September. I’m very excited about what this year’s will open up for me and the world as we experience Ekam World Peace Festival 2019.

Come and join us on the journey. All of this from the comfort of your own home until we meet together on September 22, 2019 and join 2 million people from around world as we meditate for peace. Inner Peace. Outer Peace.

Namaste

#ekamworldpeacefestival2019

#peace

 

Wow!  That’s how I’ll start the description of tonight’s perfomance of “Considering Matthew Shepard” by Coro Vocati. Truly moving perfomance and brought up many of my memories of that time in 1998 and the trial in 1999.  Seeing Matt’s picture on the screen tonight, the one that was shown all over the news 20 years ago, just brought up so much conflict in me. I could feel the emotions from 20 years ago like it was yesterday. Gut wrenching pain as we heard the news of the events of that night in October 1998.

How could 2 human beings be so full of fear and anger that they could do such a thing to another human being?

And then feelings of compassion and love for Matt’s parents and his brother.  Matt would be 40 this December.  Wow. Yet I will always remember the picture of him at 19 years of age.

I also have compassion for the 2 guys who did this. It truly was horrific . . . yet I also hope that they have come to some peace in their own lives, serving 2 back to back lifetime sentences. I hope they’ve had time to think about what they did and have come to some resolution and peace in their hearts.

 

My heart is overwhelmed right now and I am so grateful for all of the love in my life.  I am surrounded by love that allows me to feel all of the emotions tonight and a love that lets my tears fall.

 

Thank You to Craig Hella Johnson with Conspirare for writing this and for John Dickson of Coro Vocati for directing and all of the performers tonight who shared their hearts, voices and souls on stage.  I am a changed human being and I am truly grateful I got to experience this.

 

#consideringmatthewshepard #conspirare #lovewins #corovocati